Love Letter

The anticipation eats away at me:I don’t know how you will react when you read those words.

Those words that I wrote for you in a love letter,

Enclosing my heart inside the seal that I kissed.

Placing a forever stamp on the envelope

Because that is where you will be in my heart –

Along with all our memories.

It’s been so long since last I saw you.
Far too often I catch myself wandering in the distance

Of thoughts consisting of you, and only you.

I debate whether or not you think of me this way.

I feel manic –

A bit obsessed –

I just can’t seem to get you out of my head.
I wrote that love letter at least 1,000 times.

Took me 13 years to finally come to terms with the truth;

Yes, I love you.

I torture myself over and over

Wondering have I missed the opportunity

Or if you’d even remember…me?
Surely you can’t be

The same person I knew so long ago.

I know I’ve changed –

I wonder if you’d even like the new me?
Each line of my letter is a heart string

That plays a specific melody for

Every year that we could have been together;

Just you and me.

I wanted you to be swept away in adoration

And truly see the tenderness of my love.

You are the epitome of my desire;

The gift I’m now longing to keep.

I didn’t realize it then, but I am aware now

That all I have ever wanted

Was to live in your arms.